I want my Mommy. I have a fever and a sore throat so I called in sick. I feel whiny and depressed. I'm going to go back to bed for a while and if i feel better when I get up I am going to sew something. Probably work on the borders of a couple of projects.
I watched "The Biggest Loser" last night. I have watched every episode of every season, but this season is different. It's the largest group of contestants they've ever had. The ladies actually look like me. I could see myself in so many of them. I sat at my desk and cried. I'm tired of looking and feeling this way. I don't have trainers like Bob and Jillian to work out with, (if I had a trainer that looked like Bob I would be in high heaven!) but I need to get back to eating the way I know I'm supposed to. I need to start walking again, except that because of my current health issues I can't really walk around the neighborhood. The doctors are scared I'll get dizzy and fall. There isn't a mall close anymore or I'd walk there. I think I'm going to research the local community centers and see what they offer for fitness classes. Or figure out a way to find someone in the neighborhood that will walk with me. There are a couple of ladies who walk together but they are very fast and I wouldn't be able to keep up with them.
At the end of 2008 with the health problems I was having I gained back some of the 70 lbs I'd lost in the first half of the year. I'd like to lose that weight this month and then start February back around my lowest point. I've been doing better with my eating the last few days but haven't gotten on the scale in about a week. I'm going to do that tomorrow when I'm (hopefully) feeling better. I'm going to put a tracker back on the sidebar here and start keeping track again.
May we all have a healthier and happier 2009. If you are losing weight or exercising, I'd love to hear about it. We can encourage each other.